Hopefully you’ll receive this while it’s still Sunday, although our community spans across timezones 20+ hours apart, so I know that’s overly optimistic. I feel like I live in a constant state of polarization. Perhaps you can relate…
My practical Managers want this ready to be mailed first thing Sunday morning to greet you while you are relaxing into your day. Meanwhile, other self caretaking parts made sure I stepped away from work on Saturday after a demanding week. I enjoyed a long bike ride on a gorgeous day with Erik, a rare evening out with my parents, a good night’s sleep and a quiet Sunday morning. So, I’m rested and replenished AND you didn’t get this “on time”.
Welcome to my polarization of trying to meet my own professional expectations while also balancing personal and family needs. It is pretty constant, isn’t it? I know many of you can relate.
What is the “best” solution after all? I’ve finally accepted that the best solution is ever-changing, unpredictable and changes moment by moment. This is the best I could do today, and I’m trying to reassure my parts that is just fine.
Here’s a reflection I recorded before heading down to the lake for my unexpected cold, invigorating swim. I talk about the polarization between the parts wanting to continue with Erik for a peak climb versus the parts that were too tired from movement, that needed to rest from filtering any more input.
Click image for a 2’37” video reflecting on my polarized parts. Let me know if these are helpful, encouraging or validating in any way! I’m just offering a morsel to chew on as we all continue to befriend our internal system of parts.
Did this remind you of a polarization that you get to hang out with?
How do you feel towards your polarized parts? How do you take care of them?
And one of these days if I’m feeing courageous, I’ll share my internal dialog whenever deciding whether or not to share a video. Boy does doing this stir up the critic, the perfectionist and the self doubt. Alright already! I chuckle with my parts that at some point I just have to close my eyes, press send, and not look back–or you’ll never hear anything from me! (Not looking back lasts all of a millisecond btw. 🙂 Thank you for your kindness and support over the years as we find our way.
I hope today was a beautiful day–in large or small ways. Thanks for helping make our world more loving, playful and open-hearted.
With love, as I try not to second-guess myself and be gentle with my parts…